Nate and Tom headed down the driveway at 6:50 this morning. Steve followed ten minutes later. As I washed the dishes from "early breakfast," it occurred to me that since we had all been up very late last night, the "late breakfast" crew would probably come dragging downstairs even later than usual. Excited, I rushed to finish washing the dishes and to switch the first load of laundry over to the dryer, anticipating perhaps as much as an entire hour of uninterrupted calm. My Beloved's hand was on the latch, and my heart was thrilled within me! (Song of Solomon 5:4)
Some mornings - too many mornings - life is crazy busy from the get-go. The day gets all on top of me almost before my feet hit the floor. As I rush from breakfast to school books, dentist appointments to piano lessons, a longing tugs at my heart - a yearning for my Beloved because I missed Him at the door.
The house I grew up in sat at the end of a long gravel driveway, way out in the country. No one drove down that driveway unless they lived at our house or they were someone coming expressly to see a member of my family. I can still remember the sensation caused by the crunch of tires on gravel - heads turned, ears strained. One person might peer out the front window, while another bounded to the door. Crunching gravel meant: Visitors! Company! And that was always a big exciting deal, way out there in the country.
When Steve and I were dating, way back about a hundred years ago, I think my ears could hear the very first stone shift when that redheaded boy turned his Dodge Colt off the paved road onto our driveway. Talk about a sudden thrill of excitement...My heart raced, my cheeks flushed, and you did not want to be the unfortunate person to stand between me and the front door!
I didn't feel quite so excited about Jesus way back then, but, well, I didn't know Him very well then, either. But in spite of my initial coolness, in spite of my distraction with a bazillion other things, in spite of my clouded eyes and divided heart, Jesus persistently and gently pursued me over the years, like a devoted and faithful Lover. And, oh, how beautiful He has become! How exciting the thought that He wants to visit with me - today, this morning!
Maybe now you understand my excitement as I stood at the sink this morning and suddenly realized, "An hour! Together, uninterrupted!" It was like hearing that first crunch of gravel...the thrill of excitement, the increase in heart rate. How precious the gift of an hour alone with my Beloved, before the demands of the day set in!
Yes, I raced to answer the door.
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